It amazes me how fast life goes by so quickly. I feel like I just moved to St. Louis. It amazed me that tonight I was helping someone get across St. Louis to get to the hotel and they found it by my directions. I remember I used to get extremely lost and drive around for an hour or two just searching for a familiar road. It's the beginning of October. This is my first year not spending Halloween with my best friend Sara since the fourth grade. It's really hard to comprehend that life is no longer how it used to be. Every year we have Ia memory of dressing in the same costume and running from all the scary things that would happen to us on our little adventures! "Life is ever changing"- a phrase that is so true. Two years ago I could have never pictured me living in St. Louis by myself away from my wonderful family just to be in Bible college as a music major!!!! I've prayed alot lately about my future. It's still really shaky but i'm realizing God is moving already for my future ministries. Gosh, they are not even "future ministries" they are NOW ministries! I have recieved the opportunity to go help at a Children's Home with a few other people to create a choir with the kids. These kids still do not even know what to think about us yet. They just see Pentecostal kids come in there just to wanting to sing with them and teach them. These kids are not the trusting kind. They have seen more that I could even imagine. Taken from their families, parents in prison, drug addictions at 12 years old, failed suicide attempts these kids have a layer that is going to be one of the largest lessons I will ever learn. If you know me at all, you know I have always wanted to be a choir director/music minister. How come when i was feeling homesick does this opportunity come up in conversation??? Why when I first heard about this program tears started to stream down my face? I've decided that I not only want to be a music minister but I also want to be a youth leader!! I found out something really amazing the yesterday. Most of you don't know that I prayed back through in St. Louis this Febuary for the first time in a long time. A solo at this church was being sung and I can't even remember the song I believe it was because I realized I wanted God back I was depressed and I knew what I was missing in my life. I stood up and just raised my hands.. for the first time in a very long time and just stood there looking up towards heaven and just cried. It felt like God said "ohh Candace don't cry... it'll be ok... don't worry i still love you and always will no matter what you have done in the past" Then suddenly two girls (who where sitting around me) came and prayed with me. One girl I knew becuase we were friends and I had been hanging out with her that weekend. But i had no clue who the other girl was and it really didn't matter because I was finally finding God again!... So ... then life goes on... I get really dedicated in church and decided to give my whole life to God and moved to St. Louis to go to Gateway. Anyways... pretty much I found out yesterday that a girl that I have become amazing friends with and really trust and respect that lives right by me... was the other girl!!! She was there.... and we didn't realize it till yesterday that's how we just really looked familar to each other!!! God is SOO amazing that he would bring her in my life twice and be an amazing role model for me. I was just completely shocked! Ohh well it's 2:30am and I need to go to bed!!! I love you all! Love Always, Candace *Shout out to MURFREESBORO!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS I'M PRAYING DAILY FOR YOU GUYS!!!* | 
